La Dolce Vita--

& then he whispered to me,

 ”I’ll never take you for granted, honey.”

I can only hope you mean that, dear. Vented about a friend’s boyfriend troubles that I witnessed, I don’t want to be like them.

Last night’s party was a bust, I feel really shitty for doing what I did to all of my friends. I didn’t mean to ditch over a guy, I really didn’t. I’m not that kind of person. It just pisses me off how you told me to invite all these people, & that you end of wanting to leave & relocate somewhere else—without all of the people I previously invited that you told me to invite! I find it a bit selfish, & I hate how you put me in that situation. Erika looked me in the eyes & said, “So are WE invited to this other party?” WTF am I supposed to say? It’s not MY house to say so, & I’m definitely not gonna throw your name under the bus, because it wouldn’t be right, as angry as I was.

& then you were gonna ride with someone else, & then maria & mark were gonna ride with pao without even telling me, & now I’m by myself. WTF, mate?! I’m glad I expressed that I was upset, because as much as I understood why you did it, it still really bothered me. There’s more that upsets me, though, but I’m gonna let it soak for a little longer. As of right now, it’s only irks me. No use crying over spilled milk, I’m not gonna be a crybaby, haha.

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Played tennis for the first time tonight, tired as faaack!

And now I lie in bed,